Thursday 3rd March: A nasty person & their trouble making has left me feeling sad & vulnerable. I can't go into too much detail on here but someone has been speculating about how honest Kev & I are being about my treatment.

I heard on the news recently that a woman did make up a life threatening illness & raised loads of cash for non-existent treatment.

I feel devastated that people do this & even more so that other people have questioned whether I would do it.

I suppose it must be hard for people to understand when they see me looking so well & able to do 'normal' things, but even at the moment when the treatment is working at keeping the cancer stable the implications of my illness on my life and on the lives of my family is still enormous.

Kev needs to be available to get home at short notice incase we need him, this means his employers need to allow him to be more flexible (which thankfully they have been very understanding about).

Mum has given up her life as she knew it in order to be available to my family.

Of course this has created a close bond between us but also it causes tension as we don't have a normal relationship, at times we resent living in each other pockets.

To imagine that people think it possible we would live like this unless absolutely necessary is unbelievable. A sad reflection of our untrustworthy society...

On a more positive note Kev & I have just had a fantastic weekend in Bath, it was so good to spend time together without the girls, time to relax & re-charge our batteries.

We stayed in a lovely cottage and did all the touristy things in the city, we lazed on the sofa in the evenings and had breakfast in bed in the mornings.

Since I've been I'll we've made the effort to fit in a weekend away for the two of us at this time each year & I really value the opportunity. It has been good for us & now we feel closer than ever & ready to take on the world!