Saturday July 25, 2009: I’ve had a lovely peaceful day today. Kev took the girls to his Mum’s for lunch and then took them crab fishing.

They came home a bit disappointed because they only caught one crab!

They still had a good day though and I’m really pleased they are managing to spend lots of time together.

Kev needs to get to know them properly, not that he doesn’t know them, but I guess what I’m trying to say is that he needs to spend time being responsible for them without me around to interfere.

Family days out are good but Daddy days are good too. Almost like practice runs … It’s funny/interesting how I feel about people from the past getting in touch.

In some cases it feels weird and I feel that they are only doing it to make themselves feel better.

Or that they want to come over and see me to see what I look like because I am ill.

Georgina for example, why does she want to come and see me? We were close when we were kids, but would we have been if we weren’t family friends and pushed into the situation?

I am sure it will be fine when she comes and I also know deep down that it is because we meant a lot to each other as kids and she’s trying to support me.

It just doesn’t feel like that sometimes.

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