Monday July 13, 2009: I heard from Paula again today because the Echo had run out of journal entries.

I copied the next bunch and edited them, then went through them with Mum and Mel (my sister).

It’s so hard to get feelings across without exposing other people sometimes. Mel said that when she had read what I’d written about her baby she felt horrible.

Now, of course, that was never my intention and I only have happy, positive thoughts about my new niece or nephew but I clearly didn’t think it through.

I feel torn because I know Mum and Mel would rather I didn’t do this but I feel it is the right thing to do and selfishly it helps me by getting my feelings out.